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Backslidden

Purpose in Life - Insecurity

Attraction to Same Sex

  CONFESSION

After 30+ years as a Christian, I still feel such powerful attractions for men.  I don't act out, but the internal battle with lust is intense sometimes.  This is quite a struggle and makes me "feel" that God must get disgusted with me...I should be "over this" by now.  I have a wonderful wife and six kids.  God has been good to me.  My flesh however loves this sin.  It is so fruitless and self-defeating.  My heart is grieved.  I go through seasons of greater liberty, then slip back.  I love/hate it.  It is such a nasty idol in my life.  Forgive the flavor of self-pity in this.
I know we have to be ruthless against temptations.  Please stand with me as I confess this.

Identity

Where is God? Pain...

  CONFESSION

After striving with all I had for about eight months to immerse myself in Christian activities, and community, I started going back on gay sites.

Why does God curse me?  What have I done.. I don't really believe my peers suffer a fraction of the misery I go through, feeling that my existence is offensive.  I wouldn't have ever admitted that six months ago, I told myself we all suffered the same, and that I didn't identify myself in light of my perceived orientation.

The severity of depression, however, suggests otherwise.  I'm a gifted pianist, and I want to study medicine, but I can't bring myself to be excited about anything except what is forbidden.

I have been seeing a Christian counselor who was in the gay lifestyle, and isnow happily married with two children.

I just don't want to hurt, God seems so far.







Pain

CONFESSION

I can't even type the words...

New Book Available NOW!!!!

I am so excited to be able to announce the arrival of the new book 'Daily Devotions for Kingdom Seekers'. Watch this video for a very special offer:

Worship WIth DJ This Weekend

Dennis Jernigan will be ministering tomorrow evening in rural eastern Oklahoma and then in northern GA on Sunday evening. Please bring those you are ministering to. This will be a great opportunity to allow God to bring healing and hope. Worship always explodes from hearts that have been set free. Join us if you can.

October 31, 2009

6 PM Night of Praise

Countryside Baptist Church
P.O. Box 144
Council Hill, Oklahoma 74428
918-474-3000
Coming from the South, drive 3 miles North of Council Hill on Highway 72.
Coming from the North, drive 3 miles South of Boynton on Highway 72/62.

The church will be having a Fall Festival free to the public from 1PM-5PM.
Hamburgers, hotdogs, drinks, and games will be available to all!
Weather permitting the activities will be outside, but will be moved indoors if necessary.
November

November 1, 2009

6:30 PM Night of Praise

Bethlehem Baptist Church
624 Highway 197 North
Clarkesville, Georgia 30523
For church information, click here.
Or call (706) 754-4870.
A love offering for Dennis' ministry will be taken.

New Pictures!

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