CONFESSION
I was brought up in the most broken home anyone can imagine.  My mother (who I loved dearly) was never married and she had five of us.  My father lived with us for a while but was abusive.  I decided I did not want that kind of life so I got married and have two kids (boys).  But, like my mom I suffer abuse, not the kind that you see but the one that is psychological.

I am accused of unfaithfulness although I have never actually been.  I confess I have thought of it.  But there is a fight within me because I wanted to distance myself from my upbringing.

So I am suffering the same hurt that I have tried to distance myself from.  My marriage is a mess.  There is no communication - we sleep in separate rooms but keep up the charade.  I think of leaving but I don’t want to hurt my boys.

GOD’S WORD SAYS
…Jesus said to them, "Any kingdom divided against itself is laid waste; and any city or house divided against itself will not stand.” Matthew 12:25 NASB

DENNIS’S SUGGESTION
Please seek a wise Christian counselor and take steps to remove yourself from the abusive situation. Your boys are already being hurt simply by the lack of communication between you and your spouse. They are having to endure the same abuse you are going through...and are learning how to respond improperly to women. Protect your children. Protect yourself. Find a women’s shelter in your area if possible and do not be afraid to use their resources.